What am I to do???

Yea so right now I have so much stuff on my brain i don't know where to start.I just wish i would be able to justsay how I feel to everybody...but I can't I can't express my feelings at all I keep them all bottled u inside and nobody ever knows I am really going through.I put on a act to show people that I am okay,but deep down inside I ain't. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just wished I had somebody who was there for me whenever I needed them to express my feelings to and somebody that wouldn't judge me by the things I do or what I say. But of cousre I just can't find that person worth nothing everytime I think I am close, come to find out im not. I really need some help to clear my mind so and fast before I have a mental breakdown and go into a serious depression mode. So if anybody has any suggestions on how I should clear my mind or learn how express my feelingspleaselet me know.