Hey I haven't been on here in a while but its about that time to vent because I have a lot of stuff on my mind and it is causing me to go semi- crazy. Well first of all i don't know what school I should go to after i grad in May. It's between Roosevelt and Loyola, they both have something the other school doesn't have so that makes it worst. Roosevelt is cheaper then Loyola that is like a major plus but I still can't make a decision. What makes it worst i never really had to make an important decision before like picking what school I wanna go to. My mom usually makes those decisions for me but this time its all up to me. Besides that problem i have another one dealing with this boy who i like and all but i dont know whats happening now. I knew this was gonna happen i always do this to myself but im just gonna back up and let him do him and ima do me. Even though i keep thinking about him all the time (idk y) i am going to try my hardest not to and just stay focus on my school work and graduating.

**well i really don't feel like talking about it anymore because it is bothering me and i don't wanna think about it anymore so ttyl bloggers

Tuesday March 16, 2010

I am so escited for tomorrow. I just can't wait to go to EIU. I really haven't had these feelings for somebody in a loooooonnnnnnnggggggg time, but I am so happy that I do have these feelings. I just hope everything works out between us. I really hope I don't get hurt thru all of this because I really wouldn't be able to handle that kind of emotion right now. But I now know he likes me just as much as I like him so I think everything should work out. Okay ima stop now before i jinx us cause I don't want that to happen. So I'm done now talking about him. xoxo:)

Life after UIUC

So I am graduating in like 2 months and I really can't believe it. I don't think it has hit me yet, I have came so far in my schooling I really never dreamed of all this. I know people probably thought I would have a kid or dropped out, but NOPE that's not my type of thing to do. When I tell people that I am graduating and did it in 4 years they have this look on their faces of amazement or so what schocked. I bet they are thinking in their heads "i never thought you would be graduating" , but I am truly blessed and happy that I am graduating. I feel like I have accomplished so mush already and yet I still have a long way to go. I just can't wait until I get my law degree and show everybody that I can do. Because I know I can. After I graduate in May I am going to do this paralegal program so I can learn more about what lawyers do and all the steps and things that have to be taken into account. I just can't wait to be actually be taking real law classes and be in the actual setting. The paralegal program only last for 8 months so I while I am taking that class I am going to be studying to retake LSAT in Sept or Dec. I took it before but I don't think I scored to high on it so thats why I didn't apply to law school and plus I feel like my gpa is not as high as it should be. I am currently applying for internships and jobs after I graduate, so I can get some kind of experience in the law field before I actually start working in the field. Yea so I am pretty excited to be graduating in May I can't wait:)

Venting

Okay so I haven't been on here in a while but i have a lot of stuff on my mind and i need to let it out asap or else ima lose my mind.so first of all i have this boy that i am talking to how goes to a different school and he is currently in the process of doing something and i understand that completely but its like i cant take it. cause when I text him he either don't test back or takes like forever and it makes me so mad cause when he text me i respond back so fast its ridc... but the he texted me today and we where talking for a while which was good cause we both miss each other and stuff so that went well then we ain't talk all day... i'm so mad cause i really really really like him and i haven't felt this way for a boy/man in a lonnnnnnnnnggggggggggg time.... and i don't know how to handle the situation cause its driving me insane cus i have all these feelings for him and he doing his thang which i know he needs my support right now and im really trying hard to be there for him but idk....i just wish we really could see each other and hug and kiss thats all i want to do... i just really wanna see him so bad... i hope this doesn't turn out bad cause then ima be hurt really bad and i dont wanna feel like that again... what am i suppose to do??? i don't know how to handle the situation and i talked to my friend about it but its still hard.... hopefully he texts me back tonight.