okay so i havent blogged in a while and since then some much has happened. i dont know where to start at. well right now i am talking to my friend on facebook and he just said something that made me smile... i happy. but anyways i effin hate u of i and i cant wait till i am thru with them i swear they just trying to keep me there forever its cool tho cus when i go to law school i am going to know what to do and want not to do thanks to them. but anyways im over it now and thers nothing i can do but finish.

so this whole situation i'm going thru with somebody is really driving me crazy. i really want to move on but when i actually get somewhere that when he comes back. well my bday is monday and if i dont get a call text or something from him then i am really done because i been there for him when he was going thru the most and when i want him just to text and call me and we see each other once a while its like its just to much to ask so now i dont even care. but thats the problem i keep saying i dont care but i really do and i just miss him so much i actually thought we could be a good/cute couple but for some reason i guess i was wrong so i need to move on with my life and not wait for him to come around. I mean if its really meant for us to work out them it will and right now i just dont think it is so im moving on and for real this time i'm not going back. i need to find me a real boyfriend so everything can be okay and since i dont have friends i just be bored in the house all the time and need something to do. this job search im doing sucks major ass cause i still havent found a job and i need one asap cus i am getting broke and i am going to have bills to pay really soon. and i need to get this loan paid off before i go to law school next fall. well im done with vent cus this is depressing what im going thru and nobody knows